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For those of you that DONT know, I was deGUILDED last night by Thoraf. I want you ALL to know MY side of the story. I hope you all get to read this BEFORE it is removed from the boards. Because i am pretty sure the the truth does not want to be known, or heard.
For months I have been asking for assistance with my last epic piece. I have also been asking many questions regarding zones, tactics, and other things. The response that i have gotten most of the time, from Thoraf and Curtis, to me is NOT the responses that you should get from leaders of a guild. I would get responses like "did you do your research", who, what where, how are you supposed to do this?" Well, i know most of you are saying, "Whats wrong with that", those are questions that you should know the answers to. Well, its not that the questions were inappropriate, its the way that they were put to me. I had done my research, and knew the answers to most of those questions. but had never been to the zone, or faught any of those mobs. I guess i didnt make it very clear that i kinda knew what i was supposed to do. But i was constantly, by Thoraf and Curtis made to feel like a FOOL. I was put down, and had comments about my stupidity, and LACK of knowlege about my own epic. Interesting how i completed the entire thing on my own, with minimal help from others. I did this with a printed walk-thru, and info that i recieved from those who had completed it. My biggest problem was NOT getting the epic, but was the condacending attitudes, of those that WE are supposed to trust, and look to for help in this game. Isnt getting assistance, and helping others, and comradarie, and friendship, THE WHOLE POINT of a guild?
Well, unfortunately, to MY downfall, i am NOT the type of person, who allows people to talk to me the way i was being spoken too. I get defensive, and aggressive. And i give back, exactly what i feel i was getting. I never asked, or was asking, ANYONE to do my epic for me, or give it to me, just to assist me, with getting it. And that assistance i feel should include knowlege. I guess i am the always giving, naive kinda guy. Again to my downfall.
I want to apologise to any of my friends and guild members if i disrupted any of your "FUN" game time, mine wasnt being much fun, being talked DOWN to, or made to feel like i wasnt part of the guild. Just know that i was feeling threatened, and abused for NO reason, and my lashing out was my way of defending myself. Maybe wrong, but when your dignity feels like its being threatened, you do stupid things.
I also want you all to know, that i liked this guild alot mostly, but always think there is NEVER a reason to treat someone, ESPECIALLY in game, like trash. And i WONT have it done to me.
I most graciously ask for forgiveness, and ask that i be considered to be let back into the guild. I hope this promotes discussion within the guild-chat. I will talk to any of you that decide to send me tells, about THIS or anything. And if you need help that I can provide, please feel free to ask.
My APOLOGIES
TwoFisted, the SudzGuzzler /salute
P.S. I know i ranted and babbled here, and stuff is out of context, and all around the place, but i have alot on my mind about this, and so much wants to come out, that it all kinda mixed together. Talk to me about it...